I was 20 years sober. I sponsored women in 12 steps, was considered a 12 step guru of sorts. It was my whole life for many years. It worked, but none of that mattered, when I suffered for years with a serious health issue, during which my husband left me for another woman. I felt very broken, physically, mentally, spiritually. No amount of meetings, therapy or support helped. I consequently entered into a violently abusive relationship, I'd never experienced before. I tried to get help, but it's not easy with domestic violence. After 6 months of trying to leave, I figured either my health or this jerk would kill me, might as well drink a little wine. What a huge mistake that was! After a month, I was drinking wine and liquor. I end up in the ER close to death from alcohol poisoning. After this scare, I got help, was able to get rid of my abuser with an order of protection and stayed sober for several months. Then, I got this crazy notion that if I stuck to beer it'd be ok. Nope. Progressively, I got worse. Quit again for several months. All the while I was in and out of meetings. I drank again. My psychiatrist finally put me on Antabuse and Campral (for cravings). It worked, but then I stopped taking them or forgot to take them. Drank again. Now I'm following my prescriptions to a "T". Seriously, not playing around. I augment with 12 step meetings because I KNOW they work. I'm just not cultish about them like I used to be. I am focusing on family, traveling, earning back money, and developing peace and serenity. If I try to drink even a little on Antabuse, I cant breathe, my mouth burns, develop a wicked headache and have diarrhea. The Campral keeps the strong cravings at bay, but isn't perfect. Only reason I didn't give Antabuse 5 stars is how scary near death I've felt the few times I drank a tiny amount. People can seriously die if they are reckless with Antabuse. Also, I get pain in my right side which is my liver and SOD flaring. Hope I can get off it!!!Read More Read Less